Had enough

It sucks when you don't know what you want in life!

It sucks even more when the people around you is not encouraging you!!

Reminisce

Was reading through my written entries over these years....

And I guess the most grateful thing in my life here in KL is when I get to meet these bunch of peeps...

*Full SYMK gang!*

We have been through thick and thin together...ups and downs together... endure happiness and hardships together...laughed and cried together...

Most of all I love my girls...

Bad feeling....

Is that feeling again.....I felt as if the whole world is against me now... Did I do anything wrong to be treated this way?

First, I have my work....it's ALWAYS about work....I am tired.....darn tired alright?
Secondly, I have no idea why some people likes to treat as though the whole world is wrong and she is always right.
Thirdly, why??? WHY??? Why hasn't he ask me yet?
Fourthly, why am I not rich? How I wish I can buy whatever I need to buy without thinking I don't have enough money.

Watched Shrek - Forever After with bee last night. Sometimes I wish fairytale really exist....how good it is if only there's a contract that I can sign on that says I don't have to go through all these hardships and in future I will have a good life with no strings attached. Hahahahaha!

Oh well, life still goes on despite whatever happens....

Anyway, highlight for this month...Da was here for 2 weeks for training...got to meet her. Though we didn't really have much time together but I'm glad that we get to talk and spend time together...not to say we don't talk...we still talk almost everyday...haha

Miss ya babe!

Oh, and not forgeting bee too! =D

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I am confused and depressed in relationship...frustrated and stressed at work and cracking my head to find a car park for Alexis...or...looking for a place to stay.
Above all, I think the one that hit me the most is the first one...am I that ready? did things changed? Or I am just demanding too much? I really don't know.

WHAT A GREAT WAY TO START THIS ROARING YEAR WITH!

Heartbreak Warfare...

Suppose to be resting on bed...but couldn't sleep at all.
Had been doing a lot of thinking lately...thinking and thinking and thinking...with NO solution.

I kept asking myself, did I do anything wrong? Did I not do enough? Why am I being treated this way? Why things did not turn out the way I wanted it to be? Or am I being selfish for thinking it my way?

Orange Moon

Emo emo...



This song has been lingering in my mind for a week...
I don't usually like chinese singing english songs. So when James send me the YT link I don't feel like checking it out but I did anyway...and so here I am...lovin' every single rhythm of it!
I *heart* =D

A cold gloomy night

I should be working right now, I have deadlines to rush for. But I can't seem to concentrate on my work now. I needed someone to talk to, and I did talk to the person that I usually would talk to... I still felt uneasy...

I have been suppressing my feelings for a while now. Not to say that it has been very long time, but long enough to torture me. I thought that as long as I learn to understand more, give you more time to settle down, things will be back to normal...or perhaps better.

I understand that sometimes you may need your own space, your own time to do your things. I thought that I can tolerate with all these things and yes I am still learning. But I believe a lil' care won't take too much of your time. It hurts me to see you being so stressed up and frustrated with work and all I can do is just be a listener and pray for you. There are struggles that I'm facing that I don't know how to solve either. There are times that I want to share my ups and downs with you too but I don't think you notice. I'm just afraid that I will get burn out one day and burst everything out, which I don't want that to happen.

Maybe I have been thinking too much, maybe I have been pressuring myself too much. Maybe sharing it out will be much better than suppressing how I truly felt inside.