A cold gloomy night

I should be working right now, I have deadlines to rush for. But I can't seem to concentrate on my work now. I needed someone to talk to, and I did talk to the person that I usually would talk to... I still felt uneasy...

I have been suppressing my feelings for a while now. Not to say that it has been very long time, but long enough to torture me. I thought that as long as I learn to understand more, give you more time to settle down, things will be back to normal...or perhaps better.

I understand that sometimes you may need your own space, your own time to do your things. I thought that I can tolerate with all these things and yes I am still learning. But I believe a lil' care won't take too much of your time. It hurts me to see you being so stressed up and frustrated with work and all I can do is just be a listener and pray for you. There are struggles that I'm facing that I don't know how to solve either. There are times that I want to share my ups and downs with you too but I don't think you notice. I'm just afraid that I will get burn out one day and burst everything out, which I don't want that to happen.

Maybe I have been thinking too much, maybe I have been pressuring myself too much. Maybe sharing it out will be much better than suppressing how I truly felt inside.

Whoopsieee

Been wanting to blog since last week...but as I lay my hands on the keyboard, my mind went empty and I couldn't stop staring at the screen and thinking what should I blog about. Bahahahahaa!!

Well well........

2009 is coming to an end soon...and I've been doing alot of thinking lately.
What have I been doing this year? What have I achieve? What have I failed to do? Have I been having fun? Have I been working hard? Have I stop busying around and just take some time off to spend time with people who are dear to me?

To me, it seems that I have just written my 2009 new year resolution few weeks back, but has actually been 11 months since I wrote my resolution... 11 freaking months!!
And usually, this is the time where people will start to look back at their resolutions or some may have even lost it...like me! =p
But I can still remember what I wrote...not all but most of it.
I remember I said that I want to read at least 1 book per month and guess how many books I've read so far? Big fat ZERO! Yaysss T_T No wonder my English is getting worst. Seriously need to do plenty of reading starting next year!

Oh, and guess what? One of my resolution was to do exercise.
I DID.....after so many years....I finally jog 1 time, played badminton for few weeks, climbed Broga Hill.
Sad to say, all the enthusiasm to exercise only lasted for 2 months and now I'm back to the start again = LAZY
Bahahahaahahaha!!!
But hey at least I have some achievement right *pats herself*


I'm running out of things to type...
Til then...

Are you a runner or a stander?

I have to blog about this one!
Was doing my devotion this morning, actually this message was 5 days ago's message. @_@
I only read it today...but hey, it's never too late cuz I felt that God really spoke to me today!

There are two types of friends in our lives; runners and standers. At the first sign of trouble, the runner would bolt—abandoning you to whatever peril you were facing. But a stander would stick with you no matter the circumstances. Unfortunately, you wouldn’t know which kind of friend you had until trouble came.

2Tim 4:9-18 tells us about Paul's final days in his ministry as he awaited death, some who had ministered with him turned into runners and abandoned him to face execution alone; some had run off, but Luke was with him.

Sometimes we really don't know who our real friends are until we see them standing by us whenever we face problems. Rather than being concerned with what kind of friends we have, why not start with ourselves by considering what kind of friends we are.

Just thought I'd like to share it out! =D

God bless!

Still (Part 2)

Many things had happened lately and I'm tired of being interrogating.
The only hiding place and peace I can find is through Him...

James 4:10
"Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and He will lift you up."

Thanks Norm for the verse!

Be Still

Easy to be said than done... if only I could put that into practice and rest confidently in His care, I'll be at peace.

I-Don't-Know

Though I don't know the meaning of the song but this song has been playing on my mind the whole night.



Anyone who understands can kindly translate to me... >.<

Mix Feelings

I was browsing through some websites and I came upon my online diary which was sent to me by a friend few months back...
The entries, the pictures, the letters/cards, memories...
It's funny how things had changed so much within these 4 years...
Oh well, just gotta say that it was truly an 'un-erasable' memory.

Yeah went back to KK and man, my mouth just couldn't stop munchin'! =D
Though it was a short trip, at least I complete most of my 'to-do' list back there:

Rumba!

Catch ups!

Tg. Aru beach!

Fly kite! (not me =p)

Fooood!

And yes I FINALLY chopped my hair!