Had enough

It sucks when you don't know what you want in life!

It sucks even more when the people around you is not encouraging you!!

Reminisce

Was reading through my written entries over these years....

And I guess the most grateful thing in my life here in KL is when I get to meet these bunch of peeps...

*Full SYMK gang!*

We have been through thick and thin together...ups and downs together... endure happiness and hardships together...laughed and cried together...

Most of all I love my girls...

Man in the mirror

Just a random post...

Few weeks back my church invited Alarice to perform in the church and I fell in love with this song the moment she sings it....
To me, this is the best and most meaningful song of MJ.

Hope you guys will enjoy it too... I love this version alot..

Bad feeling....

Is that feeling again.....I felt as if the whole world is against me now... Did I do anything wrong to be treated this way?

First, I have my work....it's ALWAYS about work....I am tired.....darn tired alright?
Secondly, I have no idea why some people likes to treat as though the whole world is wrong and she is always right.
Thirdly, why??? WHY??? Why hasn't he ask me yet?
Fourthly, why am I not rich? How I wish I can buy whatever I need to buy without thinking I don't have enough money.

Watched Shrek - Forever After with bee last night. Sometimes I wish fairytale really exist....how good it is if only there's a contract that I can sign on that says I don't have to go through all these hardships and in future I will have a good life with no strings attached. Hahahahaha!

Oh well, life still goes on despite whatever happens....

Anyway, highlight for this month...Da was here for 2 weeks for training...got to meet her. Though we didn't really have much time together but I'm glad that we get to talk and spend time together...not to say we don't talk...we still talk almost everyday...haha

Miss ya babe!

Oh, and not forgeting bee too! =D

Jogged!

After a year, here I am dragging myself to exercise again...bahahaahhahaa!!

2 months ago PL & Jason asked us to join them for Standard Chart. marathon. I wasn't thinking of joining at all, until EK say 'why not?'
Then I asked myself - If he wants to run, then WHY NOT?

And so we registered 2 weeks ago and I was telling him that I have to start training... TRAINING....TRAINING....talk as if I'm going for the full marathon.... truth is...I'm only running for 5km.... bahahahahaaa!
Hey, but it's very long for me okay?! -_-'''

Aight so last weekend we decided to jog..... I literally felt like lying on the floor after the jog...I think I ran for 1 round (not sure if it reaches 1 full round!) and walk for the rest of the 5 rounds! PHEW!!
My muscles and whole body is still aching til now -_-'''
I know la I don't do exercise that's why aching....walk also cannot walk properly...

It's okay...I shall improve this week! *pat my own head*....

Because........

It felt like didn't work out at all when we had these for dinner............

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kakaaakaakaaa...

Stronger Than

Is it my fault I can't speak or that my body becomes weak
or that I can hardly move
at the very thought of you
nothing ever really got to me
I could always turn the other cheek
could it be those days are gone
could've sworn that I was strong
at least stronger than these emotions
that are taking over me
I swear I'm stronger than these emotions
but they're taking over me...

No no no no this can't be it
the less you are the less she is
no no no no 'cause I can usually handle this
I wasn't ready for these emotions
that are taking over me
I swear I'm stronger than these emotions
but they're taking over me

You're the silence in a roaring crowd
you're the equivalent of a fluffy cloud
a genie in a bottle
make a wish to wish the wishes will never end
you're the platinum in my treasure chest
you're the answer that i never woulda guessed
I'm a love life test
and I don't mind at all
I don't mind at all

I swear I'm stronger than these emotions
but they're taking over me
I swear I'm stronger than these emotions
but they're taking over me
its just I wasn't ready for these

I wish I had a ....

How I wish Aladdin's story will come true some time....as in to have a genie in a lamp.
IF......I repeat IF....I really have that I would wish that the genie would grant me 3 wishes:

1) Get a room for me (Internet + Washing Machine + Heater + Car Park)
2) Get a new job for me
3) If the above 2 are not granted, better still get me out of here so I won't have to go through all of these!

I am tired....physically and mentally....
I just wish that after a long day, I have someone or something to pamper me...

No title

I am confused and depressed in relationship...frustrated and stressed at work and cracking my head to find a car park for Alexis...or...looking for a place to stay.
Above all, I think the one that hit me the most is the first one...am I that ready? did things changed? Or I am just demanding too much? I really don't know.

WHAT A GREAT WAY TO START THIS ROARING YEAR WITH!

Heartbreak Warfare...

Suppose to be resting on bed...but couldn't sleep at all.
Had been doing a lot of thinking lately...thinking and thinking and thinking...with NO solution.

I kept asking myself, did I do anything wrong? Did I not do enough? Why am I being treated this way? Why things did not turn out the way I wanted it to be? Or am I being selfish for thinking it my way?

Orange Moon

Emo emo...



This song has been lingering in my mind for a week...
I don't usually like chinese singing english songs. So when James send me the YT link I don't feel like checking it out but I did anyway...and so here I am...lovin' every single rhythm of it!
I *heart* =D

Can you smell it?~

I haven't seen, feel, smell this for more than half a year...

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Ahhhh...........yesssshhhhh.....the warm breeze , the calming sound of the waves, the smell of the .....BEACH! LOL...

The long and neverending sea always mesmerizes me. Indeed it was a good & refreshing getaway~

Looking back...

It's the last day of the year...and at this point of time, people would be remembering did they achieve anything this year, busy writing new resolution for the new year or just plainly waiting for the countdown and celebrate the new year.

As for me, I'm trying to remember what did I write for my resolution at the beginning of this year... hahahaha! And I think I can only remember part of it... but it's okay. I'll just re-write it this year for those that I have yet to achieve. As I was on my way back home yesterday, I heard the DJ said the best resolution for next year is not to write any resolution if you know that you can't achieve it...sounds like a plan right? Anyway, just some random thing that I find it quite true.

As for most what people would think, 2009 passed by so quickly for me that I barely have time to remember what I have done throughout the year. Hmmm...let's see... first year that I have a room of my own (no roomie), almost being homeless, went to Aussie, went to HK, finally went to Genting aft 9 yrs, played roller coasters, went for badminton, went to Broga Hill, cut my hair short for the first time!, spending time with my bro & parents, spend more time than previous years to get in touch with Dee, spend more time with Da on the phone than face to face (kekeke), met EK =)
Looking back, I'm thankful that I end my year with happy things. I thank God for every single one who left their footprints in my life. Thank you all and I love you guys! =D

Have a wonderful celebration tonight and let's face 2010 with more courage!
Woot Woot!!

I want a break..... I need a break..... I seriously want one.....
This whole following up and cleaning and digging files will soon blow off my mind !!

UUUUUggggghhhhhh!!!
~!@#$%^&*()

A cold gloomy night

I should be working right now, I have deadlines to rush for. But I can't seem to concentrate on my work now. I needed someone to talk to, and I did talk to the person that I usually would talk to... I still felt uneasy...

I have been suppressing my feelings for a while now. Not to say that it has been very long time, but long enough to torture me. I thought that as long as I learn to understand more, give you more time to settle down, things will be back to normal...or perhaps better.

I understand that sometimes you may need your own space, your own time to do your things. I thought that I can tolerate with all these things and yes I am still learning. But I believe a lil' care won't take too much of your time. It hurts me to see you being so stressed up and frustrated with work and all I can do is just be a listener and pray for you. There are struggles that I'm facing that I don't know how to solve either. There are times that I want to share my ups and downs with you too but I don't think you notice. I'm just afraid that I will get burn out one day and burst everything out, which I don't want that to happen.

Maybe I have been thinking too much, maybe I have been pressuring myself too much. Maybe sharing it out will be much better than suppressing how I truly felt inside.

Whoopsieee

Been wanting to blog since last week...but as I lay my hands on the keyboard, my mind went empty and I couldn't stop staring at the screen and thinking what should I blog about. Bahahahahaa!!

Well well........

2009 is coming to an end soon...and I've been doing alot of thinking lately.
What have I been doing this year? What have I achieve? What have I failed to do? Have I been having fun? Have I been working hard? Have I stop busying around and just take some time off to spend time with people who are dear to me?

To me, it seems that I have just written my 2009 new year resolution few weeks back, but has actually been 11 months since I wrote my resolution... 11 freaking months!!
And usually, this is the time where people will start to look back at their resolutions or some may have even lost it...like me! =p
But I can still remember what I wrote...not all but most of it.
I remember I said that I want to read at least 1 book per month and guess how many books I've read so far? Big fat ZERO! Yaysss T_T No wonder my English is getting worst. Seriously need to do plenty of reading starting next year!

Oh, and guess what? One of my resolution was to do exercise.
I DID.....after so many years....I finally jog 1 time, played badminton for few weeks, climbed Broga Hill.
Sad to say, all the enthusiasm to exercise only lasted for 2 months and now I'm back to the start again = LAZY
Bahahahaahahaha!!!
But hey at least I have some achievement right *pats herself*


I'm running out of things to type...
Til then...

Are you a runner or a stander?

I have to blog about this one!
Was doing my devotion this morning, actually this message was 5 days ago's message. @_@
I only read it today...but hey, it's never too late cuz I felt that God really spoke to me today!

There are two types of friends in our lives; runners and standers. At the first sign of trouble, the runner would bolt—abandoning you to whatever peril you were facing. But a stander would stick with you no matter the circumstances. Unfortunately, you wouldn’t know which kind of friend you had until trouble came.

2Tim 4:9-18 tells us about Paul's final days in his ministry as he awaited death, some who had ministered with him turned into runners and abandoned him to face execution alone; some had run off, but Luke was with him.

Sometimes we really don't know who our real friends are until we see them standing by us whenever we face problems. Rather than being concerned with what kind of friends we have, why not start with ourselves by considering what kind of friends we are.

Just thought I'd like to share it out! =D

God bless!

Still (Part 2)

Many things had happened lately and I'm tired of being interrogating.
The only hiding place and peace I can find is through Him...

James 4:10
"Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and He will lift you up."

Thanks Norm for the verse!

Be Still

Easy to be said than done... if only I could put that into practice and rest confidently in His care, I'll be at peace.

I-Don't-Know

Though I don't know the meaning of the song but this song has been playing on my mind the whole night.



Anyone who understands can kindly translate to me... >.<

Mix Feelings

I was browsing through some websites and I came upon my online diary which was sent to me by a friend few months back...
The entries, the pictures, the letters/cards, memories...
It's funny how things had changed so much within these 4 years...
Oh well, just gotta say that it was truly an 'un-erasable' memory.

Yeah went back to KK and man, my mouth just couldn't stop munchin'! =D
Though it was a short trip, at least I complete most of my 'to-do' list back there:

Rumba!

Catch ups!

Tg. Aru beach!

Fly kite! (not me =p)

Fooood!

And yes I FINALLY chopped my hair!